Miserable at Best: From Good to Bad to Worse
She walked into the bar desultorily and unenthusiastically. Her shuffle into the barstool caused the staff to look around with questioning eyes. Katie was a regular, but she usually came in with a saunter, a smile, and five of her closest friends. They almost could not recognize the girl in front of them with red eyes and tears of black mascara running down her face. As she downed drink after drink, staring aimlessly in front of her, the stout bartender glanced at the copious amounts of shot glasses in front of her and finally cut her off as the bar reached its final hour. The house band had finished their set and was in the process of packing their vast equipment when the lead singer glanced at his band mates and gestured at the piano, then at Katie, and back again. The band understood, and willing to help the girl who bought them all a round with a smile and a bawdy joke, discreetly picked up their instruments to begin the familiar notes of the Mayday Parade song.
Katie, don’t cry, I know
You’re trying your hardest
And the hardest part is letting go
Of the nights we shared
Ocala is calling and you know it’s haunting
But compared to your eyes, nothing shines quite as bright
And when we look to the sky, it’s not mine, but I want it so
Let’s not pretend like you’re alone tonight
(I know he’s there and)
You’re probably hanging out and making eyes
(While across the room he stares)
I bet he gets the nerve to walk the floor
And ask my girl to dance, she’ll say yes
Her eyes glazed over as she remembered the night’s previous events. They had broken up a month ago blaming their fights and opposite personalities as the cause. She had heard her first love will be hardest to forget, but she honestly thought he was the one. She cherished their fights, saved their moments, and just flat out loved him.
Because these words were never easier for me to say
Or her to second guess
But I guess
That I can live without you but
Without you I’ll be miserable at best
You’re all that I hoped to find
In every single way
And everything I would give
Is everything you couldn’t take
Cause nothing feels like home, you’re a thousand miles away
And the hardest part of living
Is just taking breaths to stay
Cause I know I’m good for something
I just haven’t found it yet
And I need it
So, let’s not pretend like you’re alone tonight
(I know he’s there and)
You’re probably hanging out and making eyes
(While across the room he stares)
I bet he gets the nerve to walk the floor
And ask my girl to dance, she’ll say yes
He had flown a thousand miles for her only to see her with another guy. It was her first date since their break up and the evening had seemed off to her from the beginning. She will never forget the moment she looked up at the window of the expensive restaurant and saw him standing there with disdain in his eyes and a bouquet of white lilies thrown to the ground. She had chased after him after he left, trying to pacify him with no luck. He had remained obstinate and, with cold eyes, left. Five hours later and she arrives at her current predicament.
Because these words were never easier for me to say
Or her to second guess
But I guess
That I can live without you but
Without you I’ll be miserable at best
Ladada ladada ladadaoh ohhh
And this will be the first time in a week
That I’ll talk to you
And I can’t speak
It’s been three whole days since I’ve had sleep
Cause I dream of his lips on your cheek
And I got the point that I should leave you alone
But we both know that I’m not that strong
And I miss the lips that made me fly
So, let’s not pretend like you’re alone tonight
(I know he’s there and)
You’re probably hanging out and making eyes
(While across the room he stares)
I bet he gets the nerve to walk the floor
And ask my girl to dance, she’ll say yes
Because these words were never easier for me to say
Or her to second guess
But I guess
That I can live without you but
Without you I’ll be miserable
And I can live without you but
Without you I’ll be miserable
And I can live without you but
Oh, without you I’ll be miserable at best…
As the song ended, she shook her head and staggered out the door. They were wrong; it was the other way around. Without him, she can only be miserable at best.
Song Credits: Miserable at Best – Mayday Parade